With everything that has happened, from the Bali 9 executions and the Baltimore riots to the Nepal earthquake, it’s been a big-picture kind of week. More and more I am learning to experience and appreciate each present moment of being, instead of always thinking ahead to the next thing on my list. What do I see? What do I hear? What do I smell? How do I feel right now? These are the questions I ask myself whenever I need to get out of my head and (re)enter the present. Side note: Here’s an interesting article about an artist with amnesia and how she is constantly stuck in the present in two-minute blocks.
If 2014 for me was about really making the most of each day, 2015, as I’m starting to discover, is about being in the moment. “Busyness is overrated.” I happened across this phrase one day, and it’s stuck to me like a piece of chewing gum to the sole of a shoe – not always visible, but every once in a while it makes its presence felt and you’re reminded that it is there.
I like to stay busy. I like to-do lists and I especially like working my way through them. I’ve said before that when the kid was born, I read somewhere that, as a new mum, if you tick just one thing off your to-do list in a day it’s an achievement, and that utterly horrified me. Just one thing a day? One?
Staying busy makes me feel like I’m accomplishing things in my life, even if it’s just grocery shopping. It makes me feel productive, like I’m maximising the crap out of each day, which I pledged to do in January 2014. Save for a few weeks here and there, it’s been one of those rare resolutions that I’ve actually kept – so well, in fact, that it’s carried me into 2015 and become a way of life.
So when I read that phrase, it made me think. Perhaps I didn’t need to pack each day to the brim. Maybe if I gave myself a little bit more breathing room…? Instead of going from task to task – and don’t get me wrong, far from being overwhelmed, I love feeling like I’m being incredibly efficient, no matter how small or insignificant the tasks – I really should make it a point to stop, feel the moment and just be.