I finally turned down my second job offer – Cinema Online – two days ago. Trust me, I agonized long and hard over this one. But I decided against it and so I’m going for another interview tomorrow. More details when I find out exactly what the position I’m being considered for actually entails.
I was thinking about pain today. As far as I’m concerned, nothing encourages thoughts on pain more than stomach cramps experienced during my monthly well, pain. Literally. It is at moments when I just want to die that I realize how far man has fallen. Childbirth and menstrual cramps are perhaps the biggest constant reminder of our human shortcomings and what it should all have been like. And now that I come to think about it, our world has turned “pain” from something that was not in the original plan, to something that is as necessary as “eat” or “sleep”.
Think about it. What is our attitude to pain? No pain no gain. Says who? There wasn’t supposed to be any in the first place. But we have not only accepted pain, we have embraced it. Instead of it being a reminder of The Fall, it has become a positive, necessary thing. The way people talk about it, it is almost as if we cannot achieve any good thing without it. Tell me if you disagree, but that just doesn’t seem right. Not in this world. Not with a God like ours.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying there should be no pain in this world. It is a necessary consequence of what happened in the Garden of Eden way, way back. But maybe we need to consider our perception of it. I can understand it and accept it, but no way am I going to embrace it. Because I know this is not what it is supposed to be like.
Pain. It’s a sensitive, controversial subject, and I am no expert. But right now, after 2 Panadols and my sister has repeatedly refused to kill me, I am so not happy about it.
