“The character has to change, and that change has to come from within…” said the character Robert McKee in the movie Adaptation.
This I write as the movie plays on Netflix. I am trying to write at the same time because my hands will not, cannot keep still even as my eyes are occupied. So I multitask. I watch Adaptation, journal, research compost bins and attempt to write, and of course the effort involved in trying to keep track of it all gives me a headache.
For once, I don’t mind. Quiet moments spent alone with my thoughts, without a to-do list hanging over my head, is an opportunity and luxury few working parents have. I am grateful for every single minute of this time.
Have you ever looked back on your life and marvelled at how certain things happened and other things came together and suddenly this is who you are?
People change, but more important than what we can see is what we cannot always see – the change within. That’s why the quote resonates; this week, I’ve been reflecting on how I’ve changed in the past 1.5 years. Maybe one day I will be able to write about it in a coherent manner, but for now, keeping a journal is all I can manage. I highly recommend that, by the way.